Relief.
I have two of the most amazing friends in the world, and I don't see them often enough. Today, they made me feel like a silver-blue sky on a summer day, and I can't thank them enough for just being themselves.
Hard times hit, and I forget things. Even things that I wrote, just recently.
I still have the option to be okay instead of be angry, and I still know that... I am amazing. The way I fit together on the inside, the way I can heal... I amaze myself sometimes. I choose to be whole instead of damaged, and I finally am starting to realize that it actually is a choice.
And I'm right. I deserve healthy, kind, and caring friends, and I deserve to feel good about myself. I deserve to feel loved and secure and safe, and I deserve respect. Attaining that for myself has been a hard road, and it's one that can very easily be ruptured, but I'm learning to put myself back on track in shorter and shorter amounts of time.
I'm learning that the negativity doesn't matter... and it's the positivity I should believe in.
Hard times hit, and I forget things. Even things that I wrote, just recently.
I still have the option to be okay instead of be angry, and I still know that... I am amazing. The way I fit together on the inside, the way I can heal... I amaze myself sometimes. I choose to be whole instead of damaged, and I finally am starting to realize that it actually is a choice.
And I'm right. I deserve healthy, kind, and caring friends, and I deserve to feel good about myself. I deserve to feel loved and secure and safe, and I deserve respect. Attaining that for myself has been a hard road, and it's one that can very easily be ruptured, but I'm learning to put myself back on track in shorter and shorter amounts of time.
I'm learning that the negativity doesn't matter... and it's the positivity I should believe in.
2 Comments:
I respect you more than- well- more than almost anyone else I know. I love you. Just thought I should tell you that, since I don't talk to you enough.
You're SUPERB! I decided that word discribes you best...you...superb...one. Really, I don't know you very well, but ya know, readin' your blogs, attacking you at your house one day... so far you are s-u-p-e-r-b. lol Well, I hope you keep writing, because everthing is just amazing, and that you feel like a silver-blue sky on a summer day more often.
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